Ode to my tweeps!

I used to think courage was a giant lack of fear,
that was until the last couple of years,
The last year especially has been the worst of my life,
I don't feel like a good friend,sister,daughter or wife,
Sometimes I feel so terribly weak
I can't see the sunlight and my outlook is bleak,
I look to the sky for an answer even just a sign,
I can't sleep or be comfortable so I play on line,
I don't quite understand how people that I can't even see,
Seem to be the ones who most get me,
I feel like I'm stuck under a constant cloud,
These people help me find reasons to be proud,
I sometimes waste 3 hours with my face in a trash can or sink,
These incredible women lend me their strength,
I don't quite understand how they have so much to lend,
Or how they make me feel better by being a long distance friend,
It's weird how they always know the right things to say,
Or even just a funny random conversation to keep depression at bay,
It's hard to be sick, you feel you have no reason to laugh,
Then someone starts talking about killing a stuffed bear or a fake giraffe,
I've always been someone who has a hard time trusting people I don't know,
These same people, I am laughing with about busting my butt in the snow,
It's so strange to me to genuinely trust and care a lot for someone who's face I've never seen,
Your guys will never know how much you've helped me!

@messyhappiness
@FaLanYa
@dancingwithpain

Thank you guys all so much! As I have said before I don't have anyone in my life who is chronically ill. I feel like no one understands me. You guys have helped me so much emotionally, I can never say thank you enough!